Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Lets Connect

Human connection.

Ugh gross, Zazz is going to be gooey and cheesy again in a post.

Maybe, but my goal here is to be honest. If soft delightful fluff excretes from my brain mash, down and out through my fingertips to this keyboard, so be it.

Being in Asia, halfway accross the world in a foreign land to myself, I've found that my butt has been in a chair a lot lately. Reading, drawing, listening, eating, and berating myself for this.

Sure, I've finished a book and have gotten halfway through another one, a person could describe that as productive, but why all of the facebook time Zazz? Shouldn't I be exploring more? Maybe chatting up every person I meet who speaks English? After all, being surrounded by almost nothing but Cambodians for a week, I lack many opportunities to speak these days. Why would I not seek out that opportunity?

But there is something beautiful about getting to know myself on this level. Mass quantities of self reflection tend to bounce those shiny reflecting thoughts outword and all around. Like mirrors sporadically placed around me, I'm able to see multiple views from all different angles. This is a good thing, a form of meditation, and healthy for the mind. Though a problem I've worried about is the distortion of the reflections causing views that are too oddly angled that I'm not seeing things clearly. After all, I am still the only viewer.

Hence my rationalization for facebooking as well as a reminder of the importance of human interaction. We are, after all, the center of our own universe. There are only so many windows you can look out of yourself and into the world with. Human connection is not only emotionally satisfying, its also intellectually stimulating and life broadening.

A personal balance of all things. Time to stop berating myself for being antisocial for a while as well as stop being so frightened of lending out smiles. After all, soon I will be personally subjecting myself to solitute at a ten day meditation course, I won't even have Facebook there, I need all of the human connection I can get! Wish me luck.

Little Likena- master of human connection

 

P.S. To all concerned and asking, my friend from the flood recovered fully. If you're reading this Vanessa, miss you!

Friday, August 2, 2013

Laos Flood

They say that everything happens for a reason. I once believed this with complete certainty. The logic made sense to me at the time; A resulted in B which results in C, so therefore fate. But now I wonder if it is up to us to create a reason or a purpose for things that happen. Which comes first, fate or the egg? Awareness or the chicken? I may be less certain if there is a divine force guiding the world and deciding our fate, but I am more certain that it is up to us to choose how we perceive occurrences and how we decide to react towards them.

Maybe it was fate for me to choose to stay in Vientiane Laos a day longer to paint a wall. A spontaneous decision which ultimately caused me to be on the same bus as a women unknowingly facing possible death, while on our way to a small town which would soon experience a flood. Or maybe it was the unexpected occurrence of finding myself in the middle of a flood, with a woman who needed care, which caused me to feel that it was fate for me to be there.

Philosophical reasoning aside, the last few days have been quite an adventure.

Nugget had already made her way north when I last met with her in Lauang Probang, Laos. She had told me to visit a fantastic cave in Ban Kong Lor, which I decided was a fantastic idea. From the capital city, Vientiane, I hopped on a bus to arrive in the small and beautiful valley where the cave was located. There were only a handful of other travelers with me, one of them being a woman who told me she was feeling ill. We all checked into one of the only guesthouses in the area with plans to see the cave in the morning. Our plans became a fantasy when the torrential rains began to poor.

I woke up in the morning to find the roads slightly flooded and the power down. We were told that the caves were flooded and we would need to wait a day for the rain to stop and the water to recede. We stayed the day, but the rain never stopped. It was that evening when I became aware of the sick woman's condition, thanks to a wiser traveler who informed me of her fever. Not yet known to me, she had multiple severe infections on her leg which were giving her blood poisoning, a life threatening sickness. By the next morning it became clear that we weren't going to see the caves, the weather was only going to get worse, and we needed to get the girl medication.

On day two we negotiated a plan with a couple of local guys with a tuk tuk and a boat. It would be simple, we would take the tuk tuk as far as we could, hop in the boat, and we would get out of the flooded valley in a few hours. We were all wrong on it being a simple process.

The first half of the plan worked out smoothly. The farther we drove out of Ban Kong Lor, the higher the flood waters got. It seemed a fun novelty at the time. The locals were taking advantage of the extra rivers and were fishing in the roads. Soon the time came where the tuk tuk could no longer drive through the water, so we brought out the boat.

There were ten of us trying to get out of the town that day, and the boat only carried 5. It was decided that the ill woman would go first, and I happened to get included in that group of four other travelers. As we started off, we were in awe of the amount of water that covered the rice fields and road. Only two days ago we had driven a bus into the town where we now required a boat to exit.

After about an hour on the boat we came to a small bit of high ground which formed an island of road and houses. The driver couldn't find a way to go any further so he dropped us off with instructions to walk as far as we could and wait for the second group to join us. By this time our patient wasn't doing so well, hardly able to step out of the boat let alone walk for very far. It was with her pant legs rolled up to avoid getting them wet where I first saw the sight of her infected legs.

A couple of weeks before I had googled information on staph infections, confusing Staphylococcus with ring worm, and I had seen pictures of mild and severe cases. This woman's legs were undoubtedly on the severe end of the spectrum, and I knew the severe end of the spectrum meant deadly. Thanks to my nurse mom, I also knew that Staphylococcus and other wound infections required antibiotic treatment. By the look of her legs, coupled with the presence of a frightenly high fever, I knew that she needed antibiotics as soon as possible. The damp wet environment we were in would only worsen her condition, which was already life threatening. But we were stuck on a small bit of island with cows, rain, and chickens, but no medications. Well, except for the antibiotics in my pack which my nurse mom sent me off with. Fate? I don't know, who knows if my antibiotics were even needed? But I do know that the antibiotics didn't hurt the situation, nor did my awareness and decision to be concerned for a person.

After waiting for 2 hours, we found another boat which would carry two people out of the flood and possibly to safety. It was quickly decided that our ill friend should take the opportunity to leave, accompanied by someone to help her. Our wise friend who had also taken the girl under his wing opted to join her, while myself and two others stayed behind. We waited another two hours before officially deciding that the boat wasn't coming to get us.

A small part of me almost wishes we chose to stay on that small island with a nice local family who offered their home to us for the night. But perhaps it was fate whispering, because we decided to walk forward despite the warnings from others that the water only got higher further on and we would be swimming by nightfall. With our packs lifted high on our backs we trudged through the shin deep water, then the knee deep water, which quickly became waist deep water. Just as we were deciding that we were crazy for doing what we were doing, our boatman finally found us.

The hour long boat ride from our pickup point is one that I am unlikely to forget. The water quickly appeared to rise higher and higher the further through town we got. The rain never stopped and unfortunately my camera became too fogged to capture the images I witnessed. Entire houses under water, families on roofs, cars submerged, boats filled with electronics, water buffalo drowning, people clinging to bamboo, and all of the smiling faces.

Yeah, you read that correctly, the people were grinning. I don't know how, I can hardly comprehend why, but the people we passed in our boat were smiling. Their fields were ruined, their homes trashed, their animals dying, but they still had time to laugh. Perspective, a beautiful lesson on attitude.

We eventually arrived to high ground where after a 6 hour adventure we finally met up with the rest of the group, our sick patient included. From there a tuk tuk brought us to the nearest town.

I could write another whole blog post on the conditions of the hospital we eventually brought our ill friend to, but I'll sum it up with telling you that it seemed safer to leave than be there. After consulting a doctor in Australia, it was confirmed that her condition was indeed life threatening. We were told to get her out of this country or to get her immediate antibiotic treatment through I.V. One person alone wasn't enough to convince the doctors at the Laos hospital to give our friend the treatment she needed to save her life. They kept insisting we wait one week for the test results, she might not have had one week without the treatment. If there is one thing I've learned from this, it's to avoid the need to visit Laos hospitals.

Maybe I was meant to be in that flood to give our sick friend antibiotics and to then provide needed backup for further treatment. But I personally would give more of the credit to a girl named Ally, who helped me back in Thailand when I had food poisoning, an event I wrote about in a previous blog post. She reminded me of a simple human lesson, that we should look out for each other.

Even with cause and effect, it's up to us to shape our perception and reactions. Awareness and movement is more powerful than fate alone.

By the way, those are power lines.


This post is dedicated to Gregory and Vanessa. I love you guys, hope to see you again soon. 

 

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Secret War

Often when I come across a great travesty in this world my heart is filled with flame and a desire for redemption. I dream of going to great lengths to right these wrongs, spread the word, and protect the realms from evil.

But after a few days pass I realize that the flame was only a spark and I have been reading far too much of the Game of Thrones series.

As the saying goes, "Out of sight, out of mind." Which doesn't always apply to distant love, but is often the case with wars and death in far away nations.

What all of my blathering is referring to is my resent visit to Phonsavan, Laos.

Last week, when I first entered the country was the first time I heard anything about Laos in relations to the Vietnam war in the 60's and 70's. Before hearing about any secret war, I was told that Laos is the most heavily bombed country in the world. At first I thought it must be an exaggeration. The war was in Vietnam, not Laos. Why would the U.S. bomb the wrong country? Despite my skepticism, the bombing stats turned out to be true.

Phonsavan is a city amongst mysterious jars, an area known as the Plain of Jars. It was the jars that drew me to Xieng Khouang Province, but a less ancient history is what captivated my attention and got the tear ducts going.

Right before my tour to see the jars is when I learned about the C.I.A. secret war on Laos. I was shocked about hearing the number of casualties and bombings in this beautiful and friendly country. But seeing is believing and I became completely appalled to see the number of craters left by bombs during a war that "never happened."

 
I was shown a very small cave, right next to a site of jars, where an entire village lived for 5 years hiding from U.S. artillery. The cave contains stacks of rocks that the locals compiled, each representing someone who died in the cave during the bombings. I counted over 70, and learned that there is a cave nearby where over 400 civilians, unassociated with the war, were killed.

Did I mention these were villagers? Farmers, mothers, children. These were not accidents either, the pilots were told to target the caves filled with people, because they were filled with people. Many of the bombs were also dropped like trash. If a plane missed their target in Vietnam, they couldn't land with missiles, so they had to drop them somewhere, Laos was often that somewhere.

Worse yet, most of the bombs dropped were full of what the Laos call, "bombies" lethal mini bombs contained in what is known as a cluster bomb. 30% of these bombies didn't explode on impact and continue to kill villagers today. There are teenagers in this town with missing limbs. Children, who had helped with farming and struck a bomb or who had picked them up to play with. This is happening still, over 30 years after the war. The equivalent of one person a day was killed last year alone from these bombies. 

On the tour we were informed to walk on designated areas marked by MAG (mines advisory group) that had been cleared of bombs. I felt at first they were being over cautious until our van got stuck in the mud and a fellow traveler found one of these bombs off the side of the road. This is real, not just some documentary on Nat Geo.

For 9 years bombs were dropped on Laos every 8 min. It's still hard to wrap my head around that kind of bombardment. And sadly it's easy to let the significance of this monstrosity fade away in my life as I nurse dengue fever and get lost in a book.

But it's important for us to realize these horrible realities. Even if distance and time come between our concern for the world for a moment, we can't progress as a species (let alone a country) if we don't learn to pay attention to history. History does repeat itself, and often in the most horrible ways.

What worries me right now is that I hadn't heard a word about this war in Laos my entire life. An operation, carried out in secret, in direct violation of the Geneva Agreements which prohibited the presence of foreign military personnel in neutral Laos.

It only leaves me to wonder what else our government is keeping hidden from us. Snowden gave up everything in his life to expose a secret. Should we let his efforts go to waste as we read our books, watch our shows and pretend our government isn't lying to us? An out of site out of mind mentality might end up being our downfall, but it's still our choice to acknowledge what's there.

-Zazz

For more info on the secret war check out this documentary below.

 

Monday, July 1, 2013

Guilt of the Lazy Traveler

Leaving my hostel to the bus station I was told to pay no more than 30 baht (.96 cents) for a ride, any higher I would be getting ripped off. I was also given the advise to go to the main road and catch a blue truck, which Chaing Rai uses as public transport. Armed with this advise I headed out into the heat with my backpack; but my plan was quickly thwarted by the sudden appearance of a tuk tuk driver on the sidewalk, blocking my way.

Not wishing to walk any more in the heat with a heavy pack, I decided I would at least check the price and if I could match 30, no need for the blue truck. After a couple rounds of a song-sib, sam-sib duet (40, 30) I was able to get him to agree on sam-sib baht, or 30 baht. Win! Except that this was before my slow realization that the tuk tuk was not a tuk tuk at all, but a good old fashioned rickshaw. And the driver happened to be a little old man who was smaller than myself. As he struggled to peddle my heavy bag and ass to get started on our way, I realized I had made a horrible mistake.

With each valiant effort of my driver to peddle me to my destination, I began to feel more and more like an ass-hole tourist. There I was, a white middle class tourist paying a little old Thai man pennies to wheel me around. Before we had gone one meter I had agreed with myself to pay him his original 40 baht he suggested.

Whenever we came upon traffic or a slight incline upward, forcing our momentum to be lost, his bicycles wheels would lock, forcing him to struggle even more. With each moment this happened I silently told myself I would give him more, "Ok, 45 baht.... No, 50. This deserves 50." I couldn't back out, it was far too late. I had agreed to pay him money and he was determined to follow through no matter how shaky his legs got.

The apex of the situation was reached when we came to a stop light in front of traffic. As the light turned green motor bikes zoomed past us and cars waited patiently for us to get going. We weren't going. I watched some pedestrians smile and chuckle as I silently put a leg out to help push the rickshaw forward. I was shamefully reminded of my youth, health and laziness in this moment. Why couldn't I have walked one block further to the main road? This tiny old man was outdoing me by a longshot. One hundred baht I decided then. This crazy old man was getting 100 baht.

Before handing him the 100 baht, I asked for a photo which he proudly posed for. Before putting my camera away I handed him the note, signaling to keep the whole thing. When I looked back up he had his hand stretched out for me to hold. I obliged and was surprised when he didn't shake it, but held it firmly with both hands. It was clear in his eyes as he looked into mine, that he was very grateful. I wish I could say it made me feel like a saint but 100 baht is only 3 USD and it was given mostly out of guilt. I can't say it was all out of guilt, however. That amazing old man peddling my 160 lb self and bag through the streets of Chiang Rai undoubtedly earned my respect.

Shameful experience for me, but at least I learned something and my strong friend got a great leg workout.

- Zazz

 

 

Monday, June 24, 2013

Finding God

Ladies and gentlemen, I have found God. I know who he is, I have met him.

 

Yikes! Don't worry everyone, I'm not being serious. In all actuality, something about hearing that statement is really frightening to me. It's so mater of fact, so confident, so end of the line... So arrogant.

You know god and you have seen him, hmmm? Little ol' you, handing out pamphlets at the end of your speech with nothing to benefit yourself but to spread the message of love and good things. Reel 'em in with laughter, simple truths, dancing, robes, shaved heads, and with your strong presence. After everyone's smiling and soaking everything up like children, throw them the pamphlet about the course. The 7 day, articulately planned out course on how to be a better person and learn the truth. Not a free course of course, but you won't tell them that quite yet.

I know a salesman when I see one, I've been a saleswomen myself. If there is anything I have learned in my life, concerning god, its to be alert around the people who claim to know things with certainty about god. Be weary of the person who's trying to sell you something.

I should have started out the post this way,

Ladies and gentlemen, I have found a charlatan. Yet another person trying to sell you god. Yet another fisherman reeling in hungry fish, casting nets and taking what he can get.

All in all, he seemed a fantastic guy with possibilities of becoming a bit of a cult leader. You know, those types of people who have followers who go to seminars in fancy hotels in cities like LA. They know the secret to happiness, (so they say) and they'll teach it to you... for a fee. Whoever that guy is, I believe I have found one tonight. He is already holding seminars for large groups of businessmen, and I came across him tonight by a compelling situation of chance.

I've been looking for teachers, someone to teach me about Buddhism, meditation, Taoism, yoga, and pretty much anything related. And 'lo and behold, this Russian baba, who's flying into town for a seminar in Bangkok, decides to be a day late because he showed up here in Pai, to speak with us. Not on purpose mind you, but by chance. Because he dressed like a sheep at an airport, and someone spotted him believing they'd be getting the real wool. Lucky us! I know I was fooled at first. His appearance in my life, just as I was getting into town, seemed like fate at first, and he seemed so wise and aware.

Perhaps I'm being a bit too cynical towards this guy. He was knowledgeable in eastern philosophy and religion, far, far, far more so than I am. More than 85% of what he said was great advice as well. Simple and beautiful truths that everyone needs reminding of now and again. Like, don't be afraid to smile, be humble, remember to love, and all of those other great sayings you'll find on cheesy Facebook memes. He had passion for what he was teaching, he was engaging, musically talented, and he could very possibly have had nothing but good intentions.

But... There's that but.

And that, but, farted out, " I know who god is, I have met him."

I wish I could show you all a picture of this guy and his companion. Unfortunately I didn't have my camera on me when I went to this bahajan/satsang gathering. He was dressed like a monk, sang hare Krishna, and preached of Jesus Christ. My reaction at the end if it all? Sorry dude, I was a Mormon once, I am fully experienced with people who claim to know and see god. Maybe many who claim it, believe it, there is nothing wrong with that. But my opinion is that to claim to know, with certainty, anything related to the unknown, is stunting towards growth and possibilities.

My conclusion so far after this experience? God is still hiding, or maybe god is everything and nothing. whatever the case, people are still longing to connect, love, and experience life. There will always be charlatans and preachers and prophets who claim to know things, many of them do know great things, but always take it in with a bit of open minded cynicism. Or don't, it's totally up to you. :)

 

Hare Krishna,

Zazz

 


                         

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Chiang Mai Train Ride

A little soul on a train all alone.

How do you draw a great expanse of space and time? How do you write of the sensation of speeding past beautiful scenes on a clicking bullet; all the while being oddly aware, but not fully comprehending, the lands, mountains, and oceans separating you from home, friends, and anyone who knows your name?

I am simply a little soul on a train in a great expanse of land full of many. And there is something wholly awe inspiring about that, something exciting as well as deeply lonely.

I plug my music into my ears and I can't help but cry from the shear beauty and power of this experience. Music, art, and literature are the tools we use to share and connect with the other humans around us. An artistic connection helps us not feel so alone in the world. But nothing can compare to the dizzying sensation of being completely in a moment.

I am not alone in my loneliness, therefore I'm not alone.

-zazz

Peter Bradly Adams everyone,


 

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Get Busy Living, Please

The Talented Nugget put together a video of the first two weeks of our travels.

Introducing: Nugget Zazz Adventures Video prt 1: Get Busy Living

Guest starring the beautiful Rachelle from London

( Prepared to be inspired and amazed!)